We had been discharged Friday, June 4 2010 and we were overwhelmed with learning to care for Baby Nicholas. His med schedule, feeding tubes and equipment deliveries from Beaumont. We needed a suctioning machine because Baby Nicholas wasn't swallowing properly. It was terrifying. I remember walking in the doors to come home to pack and Nick and I saying - should we really have been discharged, what are we doing home? We were both so scared. We packed up and left Sunday evening and when we got on the expressway God purposely placed this rainbow to let us know we were on track...

If you look at it closely, the clouds created a cross on it, I felt a peace from God that we were doing exactly what we were suppose to do. We drove through the night and it was a tough drive for Nick, remember we pretty much went straight from 14 days in PICU to a full day of packing to a 12 hour drive to get to St. Jude. Baby Nicholas slept most of the way, my little man has been through so very much my heart breaks for him to be going through this.

Please God grant us the strength and courage to push through this - we are so tired and weak .... please pull us through this together.