Ahhhhh what a tough day dreading watching the bags packed and them sitting at the door waiting for the cab to come pick up my boys. The last few days went by so quickly .... watching Christian playing on the floor with Baby Nicholas made my eyes fill up with tears. It seems so unfair that we have to be apart but we have no choice and I pray daily that God knows our hearts and that his will is to keep our boy safe and well so one day we will look back at these sacrifices and know that every minute we are apart was to heal our Baby ...

Today is November 7th and it was as if time has stood still .... I lost my cousin Danielle 6 years ago today. How could it be 6 years? In the big picture she reminds me of how quickly life changes aside from this journey - she was gone in a flash - Heaven awaited her while we mourned for her loss. We still mourn and miss her - we love her and know that one day we will all see each other again. How do the people I love most not see the big picture, forgiving and forgetting, loving and growing .... through suffering there is so much to learn. I sure wish the people I love knew what is most important. For me, it is getting my son well .... praying to God that he restores him completely ....