We never thought we could ever hurt so badly ..... but, we are hurting in ways we could never have imagined, his absence with us is so painful  ......we  started a new facebook page for family and friends only because it was needed - it wasn't just friends anymore, it was many people praying and many in the cancer community ..... I have given every ounce of myself to advocating and fighting, but I now find myself wanting to completely walk away, this could be temporary or it might be for good only god and time will tell  - for 6 weeks Nicky wanted to watch FROZEN and I never listened to it until I was talking to a friend ....I told her it was time for me to move on from the cancer world and try my best to enjoy my 3 children .... in the background not yet released Disney radio played this, ....I didn't catch the first lyrics as I turned it up.... they were not for me but this clearly was if you knew Nicky he was never cold, he was a tough kid that was hard ..... it snowed so much that we could no go to his burial site that day,  this has been the coldest and most snow Detroit has seen in 20 plus years  ..... so this was fitting that our current profile will change to his name Nicholas Ashton George and the groups created for families will remain up. I will access it, but not all the time..... I need to "LET IT GO" ... he pretty much said so ...

The video is at the end the first chorus I didn't notice .... its the second one ..... my boy made sure I heard what he wanted me to hear...... thank you Lord for so giving us this amazing child that still speaks to our hearts ........ will never watch this movie the same and now I actually love watching the snow fall .... I have one last task in this community to finish for my son and his foundation and that will happen .... we can not thank everyone enough for STILL sending continued prayers, support, the diapers and wet wipes and even sending Christian who has been through so much a small gift so hes not alone ..... we are truly blessed ...

 

Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well, now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door

I don’t care
What they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway

It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all

It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me
I’m free

Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You’ll never see me cry

Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on

My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back,
The past is in the past

Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go

 

 

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